I am still pondering this August theme of peace and simplicity (announced assuredly and confidently in the first blog of this harvest month.) Naively, I assumed it would be a breeze, a piece of cake, an easy assignment to contemplate peace & simplicity during this month. To somehow integrate it more fully into my life–and this blog.
Alas, I feel like it’s…not…quite…working. Here’s why.
Every day, I vow peace & simplicity. To think about it. To embrace it. To ponder it. To ask more questions about intention and motives. (Well, not every day. But every day I remember that this is the August theme.) But peace & simplicity are not easy things to categorize. It seems like there more often exists a dance between peace and tension, simplicity and abundance.
For example. Today I worked during the morning. Fairly peacefully. Came home to pick garden beans. Our garden overfloweth. This is a good thing, right? Except…somewhere in the midst of canning Dilly Beans…I got a little cranky. Well, a lot cranky.
Because The Husband suggested that we need to make some freezer pickles. Try to use up the thirty green cucumbers lined up on the kitchen counter. It felt like A Little Two Much Work at the very moment of dicing, measuring and canning.
Not very simple. And any sense of peacefulness dissolved with the thought of doing more canning/freezing. Plus, the brocoli needed to be picked. And I had a meeting tonight.
OK, let’s forget about busy-ness and gardening and canning and freezing. Let’s just talk about blogging. I have cut WAY back on photos and words in an effort to honor the aforementioned theme. Pruned the content, shall we say? Attempted to express many of these blogs in a way which touched on peace & simplicty…but…but…haven’t quite succeeded.
My vision was: post a couple of pictures, say a couple of words (OK, paragraphs) and press “Publish” quickly. But here’s the dirty truth: too many words leap at the corral of my brain and beg, beg, beg to come out and share. Some nights the words are in rebellion. They are like a herd of wild horses about to tear down the fence. They shall not be fenced in! They shall not!
Shall still continue to contemplate simplicity & peace this month, although maybe more in my head than the pages of this blog. I want to keep asking more questions about everything. What is really needed? What can be let go, released? What preconceived beliefs create tension? To look more deeply.
Wanting to share a precious quote with you. About asking more questions. About learning to love the questions themselves…without even needing the answers. Until we suddenly notice we’re living them. Living the peace and simplicity we were once questioning so earnestly.
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves.
Do not seek the answers, which cannot be
given you because you would not be able
to live them. And the point is to live everything.
Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then
gradually, without noticing it, live along some
distant day into the answers.
–Rainer Maria Rilke, LETTER TO A YOUNG POET