Darkness still spreads her peaceful cloak across the forest this December morning.
‘Tis a new day. I cuddle beneath the fluffy white comforter and remember scraps of last night’s dreams.
‘Tis better than remembering yesterday.
Yesterday proved a tough day.
Why? you ask tentatively.
Because anger struck so hard and fierce it felt like lightning seared all sensibility. This heart pounded so fiercely that it leaped from the body and exploded all the way to China.
OK, I exaggerate.
Why so angry? you ask, even more tentatively.
Because I spent at least four hours dealing with certain software companies through both my part-time jobs. Because it was Cyber-Monday and on-line sales slowed the company’s capabilities. Because one’s computer tends to stick out its tongue and respond inappropriately when it feels like the Grinch.
I–your nice optimistic pleasant blogger–snarled at an innocent bystander. (OK, I cracked a joke the next minute. Then she cracked a joke, and then we laughed.)
Decided a walk down the road might cool angry engine jets. Ran in frustration. My thoughts ran riot. Anger steamed out the ears and accelerated. Imagined slights by friends gained monumental proportion. Soon I was angry at the entire planet.
By bedtime relative calmness returned.
This morning tentative light appears in the sky. Snow promises a December cleanse.
It’s a new day with new possibilities. Anger often teaches us new lessons, cracks open new fissures, although we don’t usually acknowledge that in the heat of our passion.
Have you experienced a day like this recently? How do you deal with anger’s fierce roar?