It’s been so easy to get caught up in worry stew this year. Whether about the pandemic, politics, global warming, money issues, jobs, race relations, hurricanes, tornados, fires…you name it, 2020 has been a challenging one for our nervous systems.
In the last several days I keep turning back to the Heart (God, the Universe, the Holy) as worry or anxiety or dismay arises.
About a half hour ago I suddenly felt scared about my seventy-five day practice to connect more deeply with the Heart–and my intention to write about it here. All sorts of thoughts arose with a heaping helping of worry stew: I don’t know what to say, I feel nervous, this is a stupid idea.
As this worry stew arose, I looked inside toward the Heart. Without pushing away any of the concerns, without tut-tutting them away, I looked for a prayer, a comfort, words of affirmation that felt true to my heart right now. That affirmed what the Heart knows is true, not all the ingredients making up that worry stew.
Thank you for soothing me, I whispered to the Heart. (The body relaxed and softened.) Thank you for providing the words to share. (Ahhh, I don’t have to be “in charge” and find the words…it’s possible to move closer into inner silence and allow the words to come through me.) Help me to keep inviting you closer and closer today, instead of simmering in mental stories of disempowerment, annoyance, fear or dismay.
What comforts you when worry, nervousness, fear or anxiety arise? What soothes? What turns your worry stew into nourishing vegetable soup for the soul?
Day 2 of a seventy-five day journey to more deeply connect with God, Spirit, Holy, Love…to explore “What the Heart Knows” during the waning days of 2020.