Teeny tiny tired mouse for the Holy

Sleepless mouse in a pandemic (not my photo)

Today I am a teeny tiny tired mouse for the Holy.

No flowery words, no enthusiastic songs of praise, no heart-filled storytelling.

Aren’t some days like this?

Last night–one of those sleepless nights again. Can hardly move. I feel so tiny and invisible and exhausted.

Can a sentence of prayer come forth?

Please, Holy Heart, on those days when we’re soooo tired, help us to still do Your will. Dear God, feel our fierce desire for thee even when we’re too woozy to form complete sensible sentences.

When you want to lie on a couch all day (This is one of my grandcats who probably wouldn’t chase a mouse like me today, right?)

For some reason you wanted us awake at 11 a.m., at 1 a.m., at 5 a.m. Perhaps we dozed in between times. Perhaps you waved your holy wand and turned us into a Cinderella mouse after midnight with whiskers and tiny creeping feet in the basement of the Holy.

Spirit comforts: it doesn’t matter if your offering is big or small. If your energy will climb mountains or stay tucked under the covers. You are not worthless in your teeny tiny-ness. Small babies, come unto me, no matter what your age, and we will doze together on the couch throughout this late autumn day. Your value shines because you exist, because you simply ARE my child!

Hear these words, any of ye tired readers out there. Any of you moon-gazers with weary blank stares out the dark bedroom window at 3 a.m. We are not worthless, even in our wordless exhaustion. The Holy Heart knows.

Anyone else having trouble sleeping some nights lately?

Day 9 of a seventy-five day journey to more deeply connect with God, Spirit, Holy, Love…to explore “What the Heart Knows” during the waning days of 2020.

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I live in the middle of the woods in Michigan's Upper Peninsula. Next to Lake Superior's cold shores. I love to blog.
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30 Responses to Teeny tiny tired mouse for the Holy

  1. sherrysescape says:

    Yes – so much trouble sleeping.

  2. Anne says:

    Okay, I am not crazy, but when I can’t sleep I name my feet. While lying in bed I have them carry on a conversation with each other. Before long I find myself smiling……then it’s off to sleep I go. 🛌

  3. Larissa says:

    Hello, sweet tired mousie ❤ I want to crochet a little cave for you to hide in, like I used to do for the mouse I found in my desk and kept in a cage in my office for 3 years.

  4. jeffstroud says:

    I am completely with you on this! I too am lounging on my bed. I did sleep better then usual though.
    On waking I found myself light head and dizzy, feeling a tightness in my breathing…
    Meditative prayers, readings and Journaling done, coffee sipped, plans written yet may on be as a reminder for later or tomorrow.

    • Kathy says:

      Jeff, please tell me that you’re doing better now. We don’t want you getting sick! I always smile picturing you in your morning routine, perhaps doing Morning Pages and planning your day while you sip your brew. And am now remembering when we had coffee together in NYC all those years ago.

  5. Barb says:

    I sometimes have a wakeful night when my mind won’t quit. Occasionally, I get up, light a fire, and read so I’m not restless and wake Bob. Other times, I do deep breathing or a series of loving kindness mantras until I drift off. In my old age, I normally get a good night’s sleep. However, I wake very early – before dawn. This is my pattern, and I usually feel rested. I sit in my big chair by the fire with hot tea and watch dawn color the peaks. Tiredness would alert me that something is wrong – either physically or mentally there is a strain that I must handle.

    • Kathy says:

      Barb, I hope you got my email this morning. Thank you for sharing about your own sleeping these days. My mom and I often talk about how our nights went. Some nights we sleep like babies; other nights we’re wide awake. Your morning by the fire with hot tea overlooking your beautiful world sounds absolutely gorgeous.

  6. Susan D. Durham says:

    Hi, Sleepy Sweet Mousie! Sigh .. a restless, fitful night here. There do seem to be more of them during Pandemic Days. Last night’s for me was anxiety about driving to Houghton this morning for my eye exam. What is it about my medical appointments coinciding with nasty road and weather conditions? Lol .. Had a disturbing dream about my car being wrapped in a tarp by “official-looking” fellows, while parked on the side of the highway. I waded through a cold drainage ditch to get to the car, but to no avail. After that dream, I was certain I was NOT meant to drive to Houghton this a.m. So, I stewed the rest of the night about it. Yes, I went. Yes, it was not at all nice on the way there. They hadn’t plowed. But, all is well, and the ride home was a breeze. I hope today is being kind to my sleepy friend and that tonight’s rest will be wonderful!

    • Kathy says:

      Oh no, Susan! I simply can not imagine you driving up to Houghton this morning. These appointments with bad weather should NOT be happening for you, I swear! (Why, oh why, oh Holy?) Glad the dream proved just fear-dreaming and that you are home safe and all is well. Thinking about that day (was it just one day?) with the bad snows and the drive to Marquette. Thank you for your kind words. This little mousie appreciates it. Squeak,squeak.

  7. aFrankAngle says:

    Sleepless nights seem to accompany getting older – being calm when drifting off only to awaken to a racing mind at 2 am.

  8. Joanne says:

    I’m a tired mouse right now, but that’s because it’s 11pm! I hope you slept better last night, Kathy. xx

    • Kathy says:

      It’s fascinating to think of it being 11 p.m. where you are, Joanne–and it’s just 8 a.m. here. Sleep well, my friend. P.S. A great night of sleep last night, thank you!

      • Joanne says:

        One thing I always look at when I visit overseas blogs is the time that shows on my comment, and often I visit my friends overnight.
        I’m glad to hear you slept well. 😊

  9. Unfortunately I have trouble sleeping most nights. It might be an age thing, but a restless mind sometimes seems to be part of it. And tinnitus. It’s weird, but watching TV usually puts me to sleep, and I remember that happening to my father, too. He’s be snoring away on the couch and if we changed the channel he would bolt awake and say, “Hey, I was watching that!” And soon he’d be asleep again. I guess the apple doesn’t fall too far from the tree. 🙂

    • Kathy says:

      Good morning, Barbara. Since we’re the same age–we are, aren’t we?–I guess we both know about this latest “fun” of life. I am sorry that your tinnitus keeps you awake. Smiling thinking of you being like your father. Glad something works to get you to sleep.

  10. Stacy says:

    Oh, yes. Much trouble sleeping these nights. Melatonin, ashwagandha, and meditative prayers.

    I hope you get some zzz’s!


    • Kathy says:

      I had to look up ashwagandha, Stacy–have never heard of that. I use a homeopathic called Calms Forte. Luckily, have had no trouble sleeping since this little mouse story. xoxoxo

      • Stacy says:

        My functional medicine doctor recommended it. It turns off the mind, or slows it down, so that the soul can rest. Bravo on your renewed ability to sleep! I know what I am supposed to do but have been too lazy to do it.

        • Kathy says:

          I had a functional medicine doc, too! Calms Forte seems to do the same thing…my mind can be racing (writing stories or somethin’) and suddenly everything just slows down. Ahhh, yes, we often know what to do…but… I get it.

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