Feeling tense the last couple of days about covid. The only time I felt real fear was on March 14th last winter when we locked down…as the mind imagined all sorts of possible sickness and death scenarios.
But cases are now growing like crazy in our Upper Peninsula, and local people in our county are getting sick. Our good friend’s entire family came down with the virus, at least six out of seven of them, although only one “counted” under official tallies because the rest weren’t tested. Luckily they all experienced only mild sickness with fevers, chills, coughs. They are better now.
This past week we’ve had outbreaks at the grocery store, an American Legion, tribal offices, a bar, and now one of our schools is teaching virtually for two weeks because staff members are testing positive or ill. People I know are posting about their virus challenges on Facebook.
One dear friend has a granddaughter possibly exposed at another nearby school (she sat next to someone in three out of four classes who caught the virus) and another friend’s daughter-in-law has a close coworker with covid. (The coworker did not believe in wearing masks.)
Michigan had 3,792 new cases yesterday. Thirty one deaths (20 identified during a vital record review). Over 200 people like you and me tested positive in the U.P. In one day. The day before was similar. Some are asymptomatic, some mildly ill, some very ill, and a few will not live to celebrate Thanksgiving.
Fifty patients are hospitalized with covid in the U.P. and twenty one patients are in ICU.
Our U.P. borders Wisconsin where 5,278 cases were recorded on Saturday. On Friday they had 1,510 people in the hospital with coronavirus, 349 in the ICU.
My mom lives in assisted living downstate. Right across the road there’s a nursing home where eight patients and two staff members tested positive this week. That just feels too close for comfort.
I am not really feeling particularly scared for Barry and me, although we might get sick at any time. I am scared for our community. For the vulnerable. For those with pre-existing conditions. Generally, am just feeling this background tension of not knowing what’s going to happen next. It feels like an invisible rumbling train is approaching at full speed and you don’t know where the tracks are and how to get out of the way.
What do you do with scared or tense feelings like these? First, I feel them. I am feeling them in my body now, especially the chest and stomach. Not pushing them away, not turning around to the positive too quickly.
Hello, little scared ones. You, too, can be here.
Then I am turning it over to the Holy, to God, to the Heart. Holding all of us in the Holy Heart.
Finally, sometimes I search for an affirmation or prayer that rings true to What the Heart Knows. What isn’t just words of goodwill, but what rings true. Let me pause for a moment and search for what feels right.
Thank you for surrounding us all with the balm of love and healing. Let me be an instrument of open-hearted love toward all who are hurting. Bless all who suffer. Help us relax and trust in thee–the only haven where we can truly trust.
What’s happening in your neck of the woods with the coronavirus? Do you know a lot of people who have it now?
Day 15 of a seventy-five day journey to connect more deeply with God, Spirit, Holy, Love…to explore “What the Heart Knows” during the waning days of 2020.