Reflections on daily blogging

My 75 day commitment to connect more deeply to the Holy Heart, Spirit, God, Love…to explore “What the Heart knows” during the waning days of 2020 is halfway over now. We’re counting down toward year’s end. Thirty eight, thirty seven, thirty six…until we hail 2021 and greet her newness with hope for an easier year for us humans.

This journey has proved so interesting thus far. Am I connecting more deeply, as the heart yearns to do? I am not sure. It’s a practice: pivoting again and again toward the Holy. Losing a sense of connection to Spirit over and over again (although it’s really impossible to actually lose our connection to God–it is possible to think we’ve lost our zipline and flounder about before realizing: oh, the zip line’s been here all along!)

I love the idea of turning to the Heart again and again and yes, again. No self-flagellating and beating ourselves up for getting lost in the Halloween mazes of the mind. Just returning to breath, prayer, presence, love–whatever works in our personal bag of tricks. Remembering that we’re unique beings of God’s expression and learning to walk step-by-step like a little baby outside any hallways of fear and into the spacious field of love.

Spacious field with cows

Blogging about this every day has been such a huge lesson for me. I have always remembered my year-long daily blogging commitment with fondness and wanted to try it once again. These 75 days feel like a holy calling and I am trying to fulfill it.

It is both wonderfully exhilarating and lovely–and really challenging. The great part of daily posting? Communicating publicly about what’s in the heart. Sharing hopefully inspirational stories of how the human and spirit dance together in real life. Describing spiritual embodiment and struggles with honesty and vulnerability. Bringing this exploration into the public realm and showing up for the Heart day after day after day after day. Hoping others are moved to more deeply connect with their own spiritual heart. The benefits feel numerous.

The challenges? It is really hard to write about spirituality every single sun-rising day. It was much easier to open-the-door-and-walk-outside in 2008-2009 and type about whatever presented itself. With this spiritual writing it feels imperative to share from the Heart–not from the mind’s yammering. Every afternoon around 4 p.m. I begin asking the Holy, “Hey, Holy, what do YOU want to say tomorrow?”

Thoughts rise up like flocking birds pointing out possible topics. But I have to wait until the Heart agrees. All during the evening I watch the thought-birds arising and sometimes the Heart says absolutely nothing. The lesson always seems to be: surrender in trust. Trust Me. Trust not-knowing. Trust waiting in emptiness without any idea. (Not every day is like this. For example, the Heart gave permission to write this post almost instantaneously. But yesterday I couldn’t find anything to write about. Nothing. Nada. Zip. Until the smoke alarm beeped from the basement and Life said: here, Kathy, this is what I want you to write about.)

Blogging on the deck in 2010

I will probably never commit to blogging daily again. Probably. Unless a definitive calling arises yet again. It feels so much more relaxing and peaceful to post when the urge strikes, to leave the post up for multiple days, to slowly digest what the Heart is sharing. I am so looking forward to luxuriously and slowly blogging when the urge strikes–not from a commitment. Sometimes this daily sharing feels like a factory production line. Next, next, next. No time to catch your breath. Next, next, next.

And yet–and yet–isn’t life a conundrum? Part of me loves this daily blogging. The joy of sharing. The excitement of readers, commenters, friends. The thrill of writing stories. The smiles when someone says they’re inspired or just thank you. The challenges of sharing. The way my introverted side wants to put a pillow over her head and just be quiet, please, Kathy, can’t we please be quiet again?

I am glad to be doing this–wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. Grateful to all of you who reach out and share your own stories and thoughts. You guys are the best. I pray for every one of your hearts, that the Holy sings lullabies to you during challenging times and helps you continue to open your beautiful hearts daily. ❤

About Kathy

I live in the middle of the woods in Michigan's Upper Peninsula. Next to Lake Superior's cold shores. I love to blog.
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27 Responses to Reflections on daily blogging

  1. Robin says:

    I wondered how it was going for you. Writing about the Heart or Holy or God seems so much more difficult that writing about what’s going on outside. I understand the “and yet.” I’ve often thought about blogging daily again for a while. From this distance, I look back on it fondly, forgetting how much of a chore it could be on some days. I’m not sure if I’ll ever do it again. I thought that during these pandemic days, I might. I was surprised to find myself without words for a while. Or photographs, for that matter.

    I’m glad you’re doing this, too. And grateful. I stand by what I said when you were pondering the idea. We need good stories and storytellers and people who provoke us to think beyond. ❤

    • Kathy says:

      Thank you so much, Robin. Your words mean a lot, because you know all about the gifts and challenges of daily blogging. It can be so easy to look back at all the pluses and forget the challenges. But I truly appreciate what you say about stories and storytellers. We do need that–especially in these challenging times.

  2. dawnkinster says:

    Yes, what Robin said…it IS difficult to blog every day and even more so to blog about a certain topic every day, and even MORE difficult to blog about holy things from your heart every day. But look at the gift you are sharing with us all! Thank you!

    • Kathy says:

      Dawn, I know you totally get it. Whew! What a challenge I bit off this time! But, again, it’s something to do during these pandemic times, too. I so appreciate your support. Thank you…

  3. Debbie says:

    Kathy, I really admire you for setting a goal to write daily and then listening to your heart to pen those thoughts for us to digest. I often question my decision not to post every day, but for now, this feels right. There are a gazillion things demanding my attention, and there’s only one of me (and only 24 hours in a day!). Maybe that will change one day. If it does, I sure hope I’m able to write in as honest, open, and loving a way as you do!

    • Kathy says:

      Debbie, it does sound like you have more than enough to do! Glad you are following what feels right for you right now. It has been quite the experiment this time, but it is fun to sit down and write every morning–especially since the Holy usually follows through with a topic. Thanks for your compliment so much.

  4. Ally Bean says:

    I understand your conundrum. I’m an introvert at heart so every time I post something, or comment somewhere, I wonder what I’m doing– and I’m not trying to write about one topic every day. I admire you for doing this challenge and think you’re doing great, but as a one time daily blogger I also get how difficult it is.

    • Kathy says:

      Ally Bean, I know you totally get it after your own stint with daily blogging. What a ride! I’m an introvert, too, so this is really challenging at times. The introvert side thinks this whole thing is just way-too-much. Over the top. You do so get the conundrum. *smile and thank you*

  5. jeffstroud says:

    I commend you on this practice! Bravo! Or Namaste! As we both know from experience that blogging in general can be a very intimate sharing, even more so from spirit.
    This experience allows you to set with spirit/Holy a practice you may not do regularly, that’s ok, sometime those ordinary “things” get in the way. They get in the way because we moved away from our center.
    Spending time with spirit/holy allows you/us to be presence, in the now. The experience may allow you to get more quickly back to center as it did with the alarm, and so many other ordinary “things”!

    Great work Kathy. Namaste

    • Kathy says:

      Jeff, you sweetie, thank you! Namaste as well to you. You do understand the intimate sharing that this blogging can be, especially when we’re trying to be true to our heart. It’s a daily revelation! I thank you from the bottom (and top) of this heart. xoxo

  6. Stacy says:

    It may be a challenge to write about spirituality every day, but it is a blessing to your readers. XOXO

  7. candidkay says:

    Kudos to you for your persistence! I often find it hard to “make” something happen–from a blog about spirituality to a gourmet dinner–when the Spirit isn’t moving me to do so. And yet, I don’t proclaim to have the foggiest notion of why divine timing is what it is. SO not on my schedule:). And I guess that’s the point . . .

    • Kathy says:

      Candidkay, isn’t that the truth? It’s almost impossible for me to make something to happen in recent years unless Spirit agrees. As for divine timing, sometimes it’s just impossible to know why it’s not on our timeclock. *smile* Thanks for stopping by and commenting.

  8. Reggie says:

    I also wondered how you were doing with this project to not only connect with the Holy every day, but to find new ways of expressing it and sharing your insights and guidance. It’s a marvelous practice. I so admire you for doing this and finding the time. I have been so quiet on my blogs for so long that I have lost my momentum entirely. Who knows if it will ever return. For now, I like to pop in on yours and share your journey a little bit.

    • Kathy says:

      Please let me know, Reggie, if you ever decide to start blogging again. I would hate to miss any of your adventure stories, either. But I so appreciate you for stopping in and reading and commenting. It’s marvelous seeing you here. And I know we think similarly in many ways in this spiritual realm, so it’s good to connect. ❤

  9. Val says:

    I can’t say I’m connected to anything spiritual at the moment. I lost my faith a long time ago (after my dad died, but curiously not after my mum died – and I say curiously, as I was closer to her than my dad) but I’ve been reading some of your posts in this journey of yours and wondering how the blogging fell in with it.

    My thought is that really, though you want this discipline of blogging it, maybe blogging isn’t really a greatly spiritual thing to do?

    Did you ever read the Carlos Castaneda books? I was obsessed with them when I first read them, then afterwards I kept thinking ‘something is wrong here’, and realised that it was his habit of going home, writing his books, and making money from it. I kept thinking “if you’ve got all this fulfillment, all this out of body, out of self spirituality, then why the need for all the books?” They weren’t to help people, they were to make him a cult, which they did.

    In no way am I comparing your journey to what Castaneda did, but I do wonder if blogging your journey on a day to day basis is difficult for you because it is not meant to be part of the spiritual. Maybe it’s part of something else, Kathy? Maybe it is simply part of being in touch with people. Something simple.

    Hugs.
    xx

    • Kathy says:

      Hi, Val, thanks for sharing your wondering here. You’ve made me sit a few minutes and ponder. You know, I have done many many spiritual journeys over the years. Most of them were during the times of silence when I quit blogging. Spirit said, “turn toward me” (or it was more like an intuition) and I would leave the blogging world to more deeply connect. That’s been the usual pattern for years.

      This time felt different. This time it felt like an inner directive that felt right. It still feels right to be blogging. So often when I write (using the word “I’) it’s really not about me that I’m writing. I am sharing what the Higher Self seems to want to share. It’s really hard to explain, but it feels like this is about giving to others this time…

      And since I don’t have fulfillment or enlightenment or a need for a cult following ( a few readers is nice) then no one can point to me and say I have it all together. Just trucking along like everyone else. Being vulnerable and imperfect and bruised with glimpses of something that encompasses all that with love. Trying to describe it as a gift back to what feels Holy… OK, will quit typing now, not sure if this makes sense at all!

      And, yes, read all the Castaneda books back in the day. They were something else…

  10. It’s wonderful that you’ve been able to follow through with this commitment, Kathy, even when it proves difficult at times. I love reading about spiritual journeys but it’s too difficult to write about them. Sometimes when I read your words I think, yes, that’s it, that’s a good way to describe Presence. So I do appreciate your gift to us from the bottom of my heart. 💙

    Love the sweet picture of you with your trusty laptop!

    • Kathy says:

      Hi Barbara, and thank you for your words of support. It really IS so difficult to write about Presence. Really impossible. So I keep using a bunch of different words, skirting on the edge of saying something. Your support means a lot, so much. I did smile when finding that laptop picture–so many years ago–some things have changed and some things not at all. 🙂

  11. I love that you’re doing this! I love knowing that, when I find the time, there are several examples of your lovely writing, spoken from your beautiful heart, to catch up on. Your words awaken my spirit, make me smile, give me much to think about, or just brighten my day. I understand the difficulty…but I’m glad you’re here!

    • Kathy says:

      Cindy, thank you, thank you, thank you! It really makes it feel worthwhile that some people seem to be getting inspiration and awakening or brightening from this 75 day commitment. It can be difficult, but it is also fun. Like life–a mixture of everything.

  12. It’s a big commitment and you’re doing great! Sometimes I’d like to blog each day just to share the sunrise or some other small thing, but often it’s hard enough to find a subject to blog about fortnightly, let alone every day!

    • Kathy says:

      Thank you, Andrea, for your encouragement and it sounds like you get it about the subject-matter challenges. It’s funny, though, how often my mind hasn’t a clue what to write about–but the heart connects and the fingers start typing and something comes out!

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