Dust everywhere. Fuel barrel sold. Emptiness is form.

Form is emptiness

Good morning to all. Sitting here in our messy dust-covered little house in the woods. The hardwood floor sanding and finishing is complete, but we need to wait several more hours before moving the stove and kitchen table and rolltop desk back onto the lovely satiny floor.

Dusting is #1 priority. The windows are covered with a fine sheen of dust. Everything is. Reggie, my blogging friend from South Africa, commiserated. She commented about their experience re-sanding and finishing their floors a few years ago: It was chaotic and disruptive of every single aspect of our daily life. BUT it only lasted a short time, and we loved the result.

Some of you may know that my daughter met Reggie and her husband in New York City when they visited the United States several years ago. Reggie brought her sweet gifts from Capetown. Gifts she still treasures. (This is what can happen when you have blogging friends.)

Yesterday I wrote about feeling empty. Nothin’ to say. No spiritual stories to share. Nothin’ to report. It felt like being an empty barrel.

At 8:30 a.m. Barry decided to sell our old fuel barrel. My dad predicted–before Y2K–that the world might go to hell in a handbasket and we all needed fuel barrels filled with extra gas to save us. We kinda didn’t believe it, but decided we might want a fuel barrel anyway. It sounded like a good investment.

We filled it up with fuel…and really never used it since. Yesterday morning we snapped a photo and advertised it on Facebook Marketplace. Within one minute a fella from Pelkie wrote back. He’d be here in 40 minutes.

The empty barrel is gone.

It’s so interesting. As the wise spiritual ones say: Form is emptiness and emptiness is form. Here is an article I just stumbled across called The Fullness of Emptiness by Thich Nhat Hanh.

Smoke, mirrors and clowns

When the Holy talks spirituality it’s often in the form of paradox. Everything keeps wrapping itself around to Oneness. It can drive a person crazy–all this paradox. Or you can learn to love it, the way the Heart keeps embracing more and more.

A LOT is happening deep inside me on a spiritual level. But none of this can be talked about. It’s silent, private, sometimes challenging and very healing. I can’t tell stories that even touch the edges of this until it’s digested, until it’s felt and understood in the bones and cells and liver and big toes.

How’s your weekend going? Any spiritual insights you can talk about? Is your house a mess or are you cleaning and decluttering? Do you like paradox or shake your head?

Day 43 of a seventy-five day journey to connect more deeply with God, Spirit, Holy, Love…to explore “What the Heart Knows” during the waning days of 2020.

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I live in the middle of the woods in Michigan's Upper Peninsula. Next to Lake Superior's cold shores. I love to blog.
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23 Responses to Dust everywhere. Fuel barrel sold. Emptiness is form.

  1. rehill56 says:

    Good morning dear friend. Last spring when we rebuilt a wall in Sun City a professional came to finish the drywall and we too had dust in every cranny. It looked like an impossible task to clean. But it wasn’t. Step by step….working together…..It was done. It is funny how sometimes I can get overwhelmed by tasks or life when it only requires step by step or one day at a time. Your post also reminded me of a children’s book called “The Treasure” about a man who travelled very far from home to find a treasure when all along it was buried in his own home near his hearth waiting to be unearthed. Have a good Sunday Katita. 😊

    • Kathy says:

      And now it’s afternoon, Ruth–thank you for such a lovely note here. I remember when you were redoing your condo down in Arizona ‘way back in the spring. You are right about how cleaning is often a step by step process. And much easier than our minds tend to make it. Love hearing about that children’s book! I think the “treasure” is right here in the home of our heart just waiting to be uncovered. xoxo

  2. Paradox? I try to roll with it. 🙂 For some reason you made me remember when one of my sons discovered the word ‘oxymoron’ and spent the next couple of years pointing out each and every one he identified. Oh my, those were the days… I love the leaf and the light picture. My house is getting cluttered again from painting and rearranging but I’m doing a little redecorating and am not too worried about it — yet. Have fun cleaning up all that dust! 😉 Your reward will be very satisfying.

    • Kathy says:

      That is a sweet story about your son, Barbara. How funny and endearing! I am glad you liked the leaf and light picture. I was headed out to photograph the barrel but became entranced with the way the light shone on the reddish leaves. Good luck on your redecorating and I know you’ll find your way back to tidy when your creative spirit ebbs. P.S Much of the dust is gone already by late this afternoon!

  3. jeffstroud says:

    Well aren’t you glad that is over? Smile. As you know the on going situation with the bathroom ceiling; so every time I go there I think I should clean up better? Will they need to come back? Yes they are to come back tomorrow to see if it’s wet still. Than another scraping and painting…. on and on it seems to go.
    As with life, on and on it seems to go. Yet most days life has a greater purpose, our actions and behavior that is in service to others as you are here Kathy, each day sending out idea’s and experiences of everyday spirituality…
    Later today I have a Speaker commitment on a 12 Step meeting group. The format is that I am to share my story of recovery for 30-45 minutes. Chaos ruled my mind and gut, fear stood shouting, “NOOOOOO!”
    What do I do? I turn it over, I let go, I ask my Higher Power to allow me to be of service, to give it away to keep it. For the NO comes out of fear, blooming from doubt and ego… in many ways it’s stage fright.
    I’m dusting off my story, so I can share it with others so it may help another find the spirit within them to let go of their addiction, their old self and old behavior…

    Got to give it away to keep it.

    • Kathy says:

      Jeff, you have had so much mess this year with that bathroom ceiling–I can’t imagine how much you’ve been through. It does seem to go on and on. But I also believe life has a greater purpose–maybe on some days it’s to help us relax our nervous systems so we can feel the love even when things go wrong. Thanks for describing your process how you met your resistance to your speaker commitment, asked help from your higher power and then went on to inspire others. I know you can help others let go of what they’re hanging on to–thanks for sharing your gift. xoxo

  4. Debbie says:

    I’m impressed you got rid of that fuel barrel so fast, Kathy — that must be some kind of record! I totally ‘get’ your need to process things before you share them. No pressure from me to reveal that which still needs a bit of percolating! I’m generally pretty organized, but I have some stuff to donate to charity (both human and canine), and I’ll feel better once that’s gone!

    • Kathy says:

      Debbie, that must have been a record indeed! And this morning we got rid of some free irrigation tubing that we’d also put up on Marketplace. My daughter’s best friend’s mom wants it. That felt really nice. And, yes, one of the interesting parts of this spiritual blogging commitment is to keep listening to God and only revealing what He wants to be revealed. Good luck with your donations!

  5. Robin says:

    Happy Sunday, Kathy. I am learning to love paradoxes, the and/both of life and spirituality. It constantly amazes me when I can manage to hold both this and that, seeming opposites that aren’t opposites at all. I can’t explain that. LOL! Anyhow. This Thanksgiving weekend has my spiritual synapses firing on all cylinders. One thing I can share is this: Slower learning, for me, speeds up the insights/understanding/processing. I used to try to read all the books or listen to all the podcasts or watch all the videos and read all the websites. Now that I’m on turtle speed, it seems that less really is more. 🙂

    (Turtle speed is a reference to our lawn mower. It has rabbit speed and turtle speed and you can move in between to a moderate speed. I was a turtle speed until I learned how to use the mower. Now I can rabbit, from time to time.)

    Still cleaning and decluttering over here. I’m going to share some of that in tomorrow’s post, I think.

    • Kathy says:

      I DO understand what you’ve said about the seeming opposites not being opposites at all. But it’s so hard to explain it–sometimes even to myself, lol! Thanks for sharing about how slower learning can actually make things progress faster. That is really an important point. I tend to forget that sometimes. Smiling also about rabbit and turtle speed on your lawn mower. Will look forward to reading more about your cleaning and decluttering tomorrow. Mine kind of stalled with this floor sanding project, but I am still gung-ho. It’s nice to have company in doing this. 🙂

  6. Gay Herron says:

    Oh what a job, but I know once that dusting is behind you you will be so pleased with the new shiny floors! Ours need it… but oh the work… and we have a visitor every weekend, our 6 year old grandson who is hard on them, so maybe I’ll put up with the scratches, the peeling finish, the full spots for a few more years? Congratulations on getting rid of your old barrel so quickly! I know it feels good to have it gone. Our freezer quit working last week ( just when we had our pig slaughtered and needed it badly, but a quick trip to Lowe’s and now we have a new freezer full of meat humming in the basement but unfortunately we have a big old slightly rusted non working freezer sitting on the back porch. Now if I can motivate my hubby to haul it off to the recycling dump soon so I can start Christmas decorating inside and out. The older I get the more I understand those who leave their lights up all year, hehehe. I understand you not sharing your journey and where you are now… it’s so personal, so precious. The time to share will come, enjoy your revelations, your new insights and cherish them closely. Thank you Kathy, I always enjoy your posts even if I don’t write, I seem so busy sometime that I read and think of responding but never get there… always something to do, which I am grateful for!

    • Kathy says:

      Gay, you have precious cargo scratching up your floors–so much more important than the scratches, peeling and spots. How lovely that you have a six year old grandson nearby. But oh man–about your freezer quitting working just then! Lucky you were able to get a new one so quickly. Hopefully you can light a fire under your hubby. Tell him that’s what you want for an early Christmas present, lol! Thank you for reading and when you are inspired to respond. But no pressure–I have this idea that the Holy is nudging each of us when to speak and when to be still. SO nice to hear from you!

  7. I remember all that dust after spending hours sanding window and door frames – but worth it in the end. As will be your spiritual journey 🙂

    • Kathy says:

      Andrea, you too understand the sanding-dust situation. What a lot of work and mess! Already our house is getting much cleaner. I’m not sure if a spiritual journey can get “clean” but you never know. Smiling now!

  8. Stacy says:

    We actually have used our extra fuel many times over. We haven’t kept it on hand since Y2K, but 2005 (Katrina). Congratulations on not needing your barrel. Lucky!

    Yes, a spiritual thing this weekend, Kathy. But too private to share publicly. XOXO

    • Kathy says:

      Stacy, I’ll bet you have. If we had hurricanes around here, we’d be thinking twice about getting rid of that barrel. Our generator uses propane, so we’re in the process of hooking up our generator to our main tank. That will make things much more convenient when we lose our power. (And I know you understand about how some things just can’t be shared publicly, too.)

  9. Larissa says:

    I like paradox, *and* I shake my head.

  10. Construction/renovation is one thing – cleaning up the mess is a different matter. Hang in there. Congrats on selling the barrel … and good luck dealing with those inner thoughts.

    Good weekend here … well, all considering. Two days in a row of long walks and playing pickleball. Lousy weather is on the way, so the next two days will be inside.

    • Kathy says:

      Good morning, Frank! Thanks for your kind words of encouragement. We did a lot of cleaning up yesterday and things are looking better. I am going to wash the inside of the windows today hopefully. They still have a fine layer of dust. So you’re a pickleball player? I hadn’t heard of this until another blog reader-friend mentioned it a couple of years ago.

  11. Tilly travel says:

    Our messy weekend will be the one coming up, builders are coming to put in a loft ladder, for years I have just a ladder. Put up the ladder, climb the ladder pull myself up into the loft. I have never found it a problem getting things in and out. Now hubby has decided it’s not safe and we need a fixed ladder. Oh the mess that is coming ☹️

    • Kathy says:

      Yep, sounds like you’ve got a construction mess coming, too. I think several of us do–lots of us have been fixing indoor things since this pandemic came along. Wouldn’t want you falling off that ladder! You should take a picture of it when it’s done.

      • Tilly travel says:

        You sound like hubby now 😀 I tell him ‘I have been running up and down those ladders for the last 37 years’ He just says ‘ yes but your not in your 20s any more’ 😮. Uncalled for hahahaha

        Bright blessings and good health to you and yours Kathy

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