“All I ask of you is forever to remember me as loving you”

Three weeks to go. Three weeks until 2020 lays itself at the feet of 2021, turning over the Olympic torch to another year.

Three weeks until my seventy five day experiment to immerse myself in the Holy Heart’s cloak (and blog about it daily) ends. But who are we kidding, right? I am never taking off the Holy Heart’s warm and loving cloak, never ever, until the very last breath rises and falls in this chest of life. But I will quit blogging about it daily come January 1st.

It’s been such an interesting experiment! So utterly fun, wonderful, amazing. Challenging too. I am so very glad Spirit tapped me on the shoulder and said, “Do this.” Because everything we do–everything–can be a lesson unto itself. Everything can be a teacher guiding us with our true north compass toward the love we don’t yet realize we are.

Life is going pretty well here in the last week. I feel content, close to Spirit, fairly peaceful. No huge swirlpools of emotion to digest right now. I am going to spend time today doing an inner forgiveness exploration (thanks Leelah!) with a couple of people who have frustrated me during 2020’s pandemic days. I’m not too annoyed with them these days, but I long to clear away any remaining challenging energies.

Because when we don’t do our digesting work, our clearing work, any lingering frustration remains in our body and spirit and we often remain lost in a maze of unconscious emotional debris. And I do so long to be an open vehicle for love.

Speaking of love, have you heard this song?

All I Ask of You is Forever to Remember Me as Loving You

Deep the joy of being together in one heart

and for me, that’s just where it is. (Refrain)

As we make our way through the joys and pain,

can we sense our younger truer selves (Refrain)

Someone will be calling you to be there for awhile

Can you hear their cry from deep within? (Refrain)

Laughter, joy and Presence the only gifts you are,

Have you time? I’d like to be there with you. (Refrain)

Persons come into the fiber of our lives

and then their shadow fades and disappears. But… (Refrain)

One leaf falls in a puddle

Thank you, dear Robin, for reminding me of this song. It opens any shut valves near my beating heart. A year and a half ago I attended a retreat with Jeannie Zandi out in Massachusetts. For days we shared our feelings, our pain, our struggles, our Presence. After four days our hearts were so open in love and joy. At least mine bloomed.

Jeannie sang sweetly to us, “All I ask of you is forever to remember me as loving you.” It felt like soaking in a warm bathtub of absolute love. It felt like showering in starshine. It felt like the mother of the Universe wrapped you in ever-sweet arms, whispering there, there, there…I love you…I will never stop loving you.

I recall walking through the airport afterwards–wide open in love–totally in love with everyone in that airport. Everyone! For about a week afterward nothing else existed… only love. It felt amazing.

What if we could sing that refrain to everyone we met? What if our love was that huge? What if we could clear away our petty annoyances and BIG frustrations and ass-kicking judgment and unforgiveness? (That may have been the first time I’ve ever written ass-kicking on a blog, ever.)

There are plenty of things we could do today. Clean and declutter house for one, right? Send Christmas cards? But I also want to work on deeper issues. What still needs digesting unto love in this body and spirit?

Off to work, my pretties.

All I ask is for you to forever remember me as loving you…

Anyone else know a song that opens your heart every time you hear it?