“All I ask of you is forever to remember me as loving you”

Three weeks to go. Three weeks until 2020 lays itself at the feet of 2021, turning over the Olympic torch to another year.

Three weeks until my seventy five day experiment to immerse myself in the Holy Heart’s cloak (and blog about it daily) ends. But who are we kidding, right? I am never taking off the Holy Heart’s warm and loving cloak, never ever, until the very last breath rises and falls in this chest of life. But I will quit blogging about it daily come January 1st.

It’s been such an interesting experiment! So utterly fun, wonderful, amazing. Challenging too. I am so very glad Spirit tapped me on the shoulder and said, “Do this.” Because everything we do–everything–can be a lesson unto itself. Everything can be a teacher guiding us with our true north compass toward the love we don’t yet realize we are.

Life is going pretty well here in the last week. I feel content, close to Spirit, fairly peaceful. No huge swirlpools of emotion to digest right now. I am going to spend time today doing an inner forgiveness exploration (thanks Leelah!) with a couple of people who have frustrated me during 2020’s pandemic days. I’m not too annoyed with them these days, but I long to clear away any remaining challenging energies.

Because when we don’t do our digesting work, our clearing work, any lingering frustration remains in our body and spirit and we often remain lost in a maze of unconscious emotional debris. And I do so long to be an open vehicle for love.

Speaking of love, have you heard this song?

All I Ask of You is Forever to Remember Me as Loving You

Deep the joy of being together in one heart

and for me, that’s just where it is. (Refrain)

As we make our way through the joys and pain,

can we sense our younger truer selves (Refrain)

Someone will be calling you to be there for awhile

Can you hear their cry from deep within? (Refrain)

Laughter, joy and Presence the only gifts you are,

Have you time? I’d like to be there with you. (Refrain)

Persons come into the fiber of our lives

and then their shadow fades and disappears. But… (Refrain)

One leaf falls in a puddle

Thank you, dear Robin, for reminding me of this song. It opens any shut valves near my beating heart. A year and a half ago I attended a retreat with Jeannie Zandi out in Massachusetts. For days we shared our feelings, our pain, our struggles, our Presence. After four days our hearts were so open in love and joy. At least mine bloomed.

Jeannie sang sweetly to us, “All I ask of you is forever to remember me as loving you.” It felt like soaking in a warm bathtub of absolute love. It felt like showering in starshine. It felt like the mother of the Universe wrapped you in ever-sweet arms, whispering there, there, there…I love you…I will never stop loving you.

I recall walking through the airport afterwards–wide open in love–totally in love with everyone in that airport. Everyone! For about a week afterward nothing else existed… only love. It felt amazing.

What if we could sing that refrain to everyone we met? What if our love was that huge? What if we could clear away our petty annoyances and BIG frustrations and ass-kicking judgment and unforgiveness? (That may have been the first time I’ve ever written ass-kicking on a blog, ever.)

There are plenty of things we could do today. Clean and declutter house for one, right? Send Christmas cards? But I also want to work on deeper issues. What still needs digesting unto love in this body and spirit?

Off to work, my pretties.

All I ask is for you to forever remember me as loving you…

Anyone else know a song that opens your heart every time you hear it?

About Kathy

I live in the middle of the woods in Michigan's Upper Peninsula. Next to Lake Superior's cold shores. I love to blog.
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17 Responses to “All I ask of you is forever to remember me as loving you”

  1. Robin says:

    You’re welcome, and thank you so very much for your experiment with blogging and the Holy. Reading your posts brings me back to what is truly important. And it was good to listen to that song again this morning. ♥♥♥

    • Kathy says:

      Thank you so very much, Robin. That song is so beautiful. I really appreciate it that we both want to keep returning to what’s important over and over again. ❤

  2. debyemm says:

    I smiled when I read this line – That may have been the first time I’ve ever written ass-kicking on a blog, ever. You go, girl. Open to ALL of it. Best wishes.

  3. Susan D. Durham says:

    Thank you so much for taking this wonderful journey. Each day’s offerings bring sweetness, new ways of looking at things, love, wonder, and hope. Today’s is no exception.

    • Kathy says:

      Susan, it can be so hard to figure out what to say every single day. But it’s only my thoughts that are challenged by this. Every day something comes out of the typing fingers. I so appreciate your accompaniment on this journey. ❤

  4. dawnkinster says:

    I spent most of today walkingin the woods, a salve to my soul.

  5. Stacy says:

    Oh yes, Closer to the Heart, which I blogged about recently. And so many, many others. Music has always led me to the Holy Heart in one way or another. Even if it was to validate my despair.

    I was listening to a speaker recently, and what he said made something click finally. I’ll paraphrase- as much as we aspire to be holy (have a close relationship with God), every day we encounter the unholy (that which separates us from God). Wow. Now I know why, as you said earlier, we have to keep coming back, over and over, sometimes moment by moment. Just thought I’d share that. XOXO

  6. What a beautiful hymn! Music is such a healing gift of Presence in these times, in all times. 💙

  7. I love that you wrote “ass-kicking.”

    At that picture of the leaf in the tree-reflecting puddle gets me.

    As for a song that opens my heart every time I hear it….Peter Mayer’s Holy Now

    or his My Soul

    or anything by him really.

    • Kathy says:

      Oh my goodness…Everything is Holy now. Both of these songs are keepers for the heart. By the way, you opened my heart today by all your beautiful visits to this blog. Happy Holy-days, dear Lunar!

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