I feel dull, boring and witless this morning.
No one wants to read about the Holy Heart.
Why did I even do this seventy-five day commitment to get closer to spirit?
Nothing to say, nothing to say, nothing to say.
Nothing to say that others want to read about.
Boring, dull, witless.
Now I am sitting quietly with the inner one who thinks she is boring, dull, witless.
Here you are.
You are what’s here, I will not push you away. C’mon, sit on my lap for awhile.
Breathe into your distress. Let’s breathe together.
Do you have a name, oh you little one?
I’m just boring, boring, boring. I want to write something fun and lively and interesting but it’s too hard trying to do this day in and day out. I’m tired from trying to be entertaining.
Ahhh, yes, I hear you. That must be exhausting. That you think you must be entertaining.
May I hold you? (Image of a little one cuddling against chest.)
Does this feel better?
(Higher self notices that this inner little one thinks she is writing these blog posts all by herself. Thinks she is a separate self operating without the Holy. Thinks she is the pilot steering the plane. Thinks she is all alone and getting it wrong.)
We sit together for awhile, me and this inner little one who thinks she’s boring. I rock her a little bit in the hallowed halls of imagination.
Are you OK with this blog post?
Does it feel boring?
No–it feels TRUE. It feels REAL. It feels ALIVE. Not boring AT ALL!! This feels fun and exciting!! This feels GOOD! I LIKE this blog post!
It’s what’s happening now, isn’t it?
Ready to go play into our Thursday?
Ready Eddy! Thanks!
Love you, sweet one. Don’t be afraid to come to me next time you’re feeling boring. ❤
Day 61 of a seventy-five day journey to connect more deeply with God, Spirit, Holy, Love…to explore “What the Heart Knows” during the waning days of 2020.