Good morning, friends. It’s the eighth day since finishing the 75 day spiritual daily blogging commitment, and it feels like time to stop by and say hello again.
It’s been a challenging eight days in many ways. Often when a project, commitment or trip ends I feel at loose ends for awhile. What to do next? It happens like clockwork after a vacation; it feels hard to settle back into the rhythm of our quiet life here in the woods.
I wander, sit, get up, walk to the mailbox, sit some more…wonder what to do next…and so it goes. It’s relaxing, but it’s also disconcerting. Have any of you experienced this?
The 75 day commitment felt filled with such a sense of purpose.
And now? I am deeply listening to see what wants to happen next.
As probably everyone knows it’s also been such a challenging week in our United States of America. So hard to witness the events in Washington DC on Wednesday. So many of our Democrat and Republican hearts have been broken by the senseless violence witnessed at the capitol. (Well, 55% of Republican hearts according to a recent poll.)
I don’t like to talk about politics much online, but just wanted to say that. If we were face-to-face we might talk about it. Might…
As for the pandemic–it just feels so devastating for so many who are dying, losing loved ones, suffering long-term symptoms. Some days it feels exhausting to think about it any more. A childhood friend just lost her father-in-law yesterday.
In the Upper Peninsula our world looks so unrepentantly gray these mid-winter days. My spirit has often felt gray much of these past eight days as well.
Without denying or turning away from this gray world–I do believe there’s a time when positive affirmations help.
When I feel my mood sinking low (and an inability to convince myself of light and love and la-de-da) it’s possible to focus the lens of perception on what brings a smile.
This is when positive affirmation can create a gentle curve to the lips. Focusing on what ignites the heart with hope, knowing, peace.
Hmmm… this morning I am now pondering the light within.
“I feel the light shining within me.”
This feels true, even within the grayness.
Now there’s a bigger smile, a brightness. Even though it’s almost totally black and white outside the window.
Yes, I want to take some of this smile into this gray, black and white day. Feeling the light, the color within.
Yesterday we drove to Marquette, about eighty miles to the south and east. We shopped at the co-op and Meijers, before taking a lunch down to the waterfront. It was the first trip to Marquette since September.
We miss eating out in restaurants–which has been our fun date since we met all those years ago–but it was still a pleasure to get out of the house and tour the “big city”. I munched a huge green salad with chicken and sunflower seeds; Barry ate a turkey pesto sandwich. We kinda made a little mess in the car. Oh for the warm weather days with picnic tables and outdoor eating!
On the way home I felt the first burst of energy in eight days. Almost like the sun came out inside me. Almost like hope lit a match. Almost, just almost, like brighter days will dawn on the horizon.
Affirming it will be so.
(While simultaneously enjoying how the photos came out–the gray skies almost provide a blanket of warmth and coziness to the landscape.)
How are you all doing these days?