For years now, too many years to count, I’ve walked in the woods opening up to spiritual teachings. Ordinary thoughts go silent as the feet crunch dried leaves. An expanse opens, an inner reflection sometimes begins.
Like a dream this inner voice speaks its truth.
It shares just at the edge of what is known or sensed. It doesn’t feel like it’s coming from the ordinary chatty mind. It’s like an overlay deepening and expanding. It feels like a truth rooted in ponds and stumps and late summer wildflowers.
Quite often I have used this blog to give expression to this voiceless voice. It doesn’t mean I’ve mastered living what it shares. It just comes forth as a forest teaching for you to rest with, digest and allow to sink below ordinary knowing. Like you, I try and allow it to filter past ego, limitation and separation.
The teachings of the last two mornings centered around Intent.
Our intent energetically vibrating just behind or next action.
Our intent to create, manifest, build, call our friend, eat buttered popcorn.
I’ve experienced trouble with the word Intent over the years. Mostly because most people seem to use it as a force of willpower to get what they want. You can feel the hard demanding quality of force behind it.
You can feel ego’s hard hand trying to deal a full house, insisting the cards work out in their favor.
The abandoned little children of our psyche seem to often use Intent to get rid of pain, suffering, and muddy repressed energetic patterns.
Spiritually it’s a wake-up call to begin to see that our Intent often serves ego and an attempt to get love or appreciation or attention. I’ve been appalled at times to see my ego’s distortions. And yet have begun to learn to love the scared inner babies of my ego and give them the love they have yearned for.
What the forest teachings have gently shared in the last couple of days is this: don’t throw out the baby with the bathwater.
Can you see what actions come from love? asks the forest teaching.
Can you discern if your approach comes from division and separation?
Can you recognize and choose to speak, act, share from inner peace and love?
And if you can’t, can you turn your love toward the egoic contraction and surround it with a soft tender heart?
For many years, in some cases, I haven’t been able to do this. There were parts of myself that I wanted to disown, to ban, to push away. Disappear ye demon of the psyche!
And yet with lifelong patience and an Intent to move from love’s shores, I do believe it is more and more possible for all of us to do this.
To choose love.
My intent for writing this blog is to share the forest teaching from the love that resides in all of our hearts. To remember throughout the day–when anger, sadness or frustration arises–that there’s something steadfast at the core. Something bigger than every sorrow or contraction.
And we can Intend to live and share from that love. Because if we don’t, we’re just creating more division and fear in the mandala circles of our lives.