New blogging resolution, #45832:
Lately, I haven’t felt like blah-blah-blahgging as much as usual. (Get it? Blahgging? Blogging?)
However, there is an inner voice which has started to beat up the non-blahgger. It goes like this: “You have to blog all the time! OK, you don’t have to blog all the time. But, I mean, hey, look at the calendar. It’s been THREE DAYS since you blogged on Lake Superior Spirit and people are probably wondering where the heck you are and why you aren’t sharing all your 1,238,456,000 thoughts! You have to blog RIGHT NOW before you start to panic your people.”
The non-blogging aspect of said self raises her non-blogging eyebrows and shakes her non-blogging head and sighs at the audacity of the blogging self. Your people? Who is she talking about now?
“I am tired of sharing all those millions of thoughts,” the non-blogging part of self says, “but I don’t want to say I am quitting blogging. I want to blog when I feel like it. And that may mean taking off three days or a week or two weeks when I feel like it. Without making an announcement or commitment, heaven forbid. So that it’s OK to disappear for a while, and then come back when I want to come back.”
“Bad blogger,” the blogging inner voice shakes its blogging head. “Bad blogger.”
“You shouldn’t label,” the non-blogger admonishes, “Besides, we’ve been blahgging for over three years. We’re going to take breaks now. And we’re not going to make a public fuss about this new resolution. Except for this rather minor explanation. Just so people don’t panic when or IF we disappear for a few days or weeks.”
The blogging self continues to scowl. The non-blogging self is resolute. Except the non-blogging self has something to add:
“And I reserve the right to change my mind at any time and blog for fifteen days in a row if I want to,” the non-blogging self says (which then makes her the blogging self, but let’s not confuse issues any more than necessary.)
“I like the name of Karma’s blog,” says one of the selves. (Who knows which part of self is speaking up? Maybe it’s the part that likes spring flowers or the fact that it’s 65 degrees outside right now. You’re sorry I took that Voice Dialogue workshop a few years back, aren’t you?)
Karma’s blog, for those of you not in the know, is Karma’s When I Feel Like It Blog. See, she’s covered this issue up front. She’ll blog when she feels like it. And that might mean every day for 30 days, or six days out of thirty. She’s covered it. (And she hasn’t blogged since May 1st, either, and do you see her writing a dissertation or resolution trying to explain? Absolutely not.)
Why do I feel apprehensive–if that’s the word?–when I disappear from the blogging world (not that I’ve disappeared much). It feels like I can feel the energy of people checking and wondering. You know. The thought goes through your head sixteen times in a day, “Gosh, the Susans and Colleen and Brenda just checked to see if there’s a blog and, gosh, I don’t want to disappoint them…”
OK, OK, enough. The Susans and Colleen and Brenda probably didn’t check to see if there was a blog. They were probably relieved there wasn’t! (And if they did check, the blogging part is secretly delighted!)
So. Enough of this drama. Here is resolution # 45832:
I am going to blog when I feel like it.
Am going to not blog when I don’t feel like blogging.
We shall see…
Blogging and non-blogging aspects of self shaking hands tentatively.